Wednesday, December 01, 2010

poetry through tears

My toy poodle, Robbie, died yesterday. It was sudden and unexpected and caused a lot of tears to be shed by everyone in the house. Even me, though I always tell my kids that I don't cry.

I was shocked at how much the death of that little dog affected me. I was raised with dogs, so it's not like this was the first time I've ever lost a pet. But I guess both of my poodles manage to wriggle themselves into my heart like no other dog had.

So last night while in bed I decided to pick up my poetry journal and write a poem about my much loved, much missed, goofy little dog. And boy, did the tears come then! I bawled like a little tot whose mother just left her in the church nursery!

Here is the poem I wrote, slightly revised and free of tear stains.


Robbie,
I loved the way you would
abandon a lap
as soon as I sat down
just so you could curl up
on mine.
And how you lay down
in protest
when I called you down from the bed.
You made me laugh
when you tried to find the movie dogs
behind the TV,
and made my heart melt
each time you leaped into my arms
whenever I came home,
with your silly grunting squeaks
voicing your excitement.
But last night
you had me concerned
when your breathing was rough.
And this afternoon,
you had me panicked
when you couldn't even run
couldn't even walk
to greet me.
And when you went limp
in my arms,
I fell apart.
I rushed you to the vet,
because you were still breathing-gasping-twitching.
But then the vet saw you
and I saw his face
and I knew
you
were gone.

9 comments:

  1. Aw, what a sweet tribute to him.

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  2. Oh, Rebecca, you brought tears to my eyes. It's so hard to lose a sweet companion. ((hugs))

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  3. I am so sorry. Losing a dog is so difficult. Your tribute is wonderful.

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  4. I'm so sorry. It's so incredibly sad when you lose a pet. Loved your poem to him. Take care.

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  5. Becky, I am so sorry to hear of your family's loss.

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  6. Thanks everyone. :-)

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  7. Wow. I feel special to have visited today and gotten to read this. Very powerful, I loved it. I'm so sorry for your loss, but this was breathtaking.

    Jen/Jules
    Unedited & Jules and the Stars

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  8. Sorry to hear about Robbie. :( XO

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